A change

We was once a fairy tale
everything i could ever dream about
then suddenly life hit me
I knew we shouldn't be together

i let you go...
i felt empty inside
but kept telling myself
it was the right thing
now we been apart for a long time
which seems like years to me

another caught my eye
told me he wanted me
so i took time to know him
and suddenly i felt better inside
even though another by my side
you will always be my first true love.

going to give you my heart...

taken by your beauty
As your hands slowly reach out to grab mines
My heart starts to beat like a drum
The more you get closer to me
The more i feel alive

I try to run away from you
since i am afraid to love
For i seen people heart captured
by this thing called love
With tears that always seem to fall,
as they sweet heart, turns bitter
I think to myself
Will i ever become like them?
Will i be puzzled by the word love?
Not knowing the difference between love and hate?
How am i ensure this is different?
If this could be my happy ending?

To many questions run through
my mind...
How will i ever know, if i dont try
Tonight ima find out
as i am going to set my heart on display
and watch you take it from me..

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i take a step back
as i sit on this high stool
i judge my own life
realizing half my life i did wrong

untill you was by myside
yuh became my life
as yuh asked a simple question
"will you be my girl"
With a sudden sigh i said "yes"

I dont seem to regret anything
Even if my parents didnt want me with you
I still had a place in my heart for you
which is where my tears,joy, and love is at

I sit here
wondering if this is true
Or this is a thing teenagers go through
but i know these feelings are so strong
cause a day without seeing you my heart is in pain
They cant see how much you mean to me
They say you a bad influence
But compare to all my friends
You actually the person that always telling me to do the
best i can in school
To be good to your parents
to do everything right
while they think you convince me to do bad things
when really you the one that makes me do good

Yes i lied to them
Since i knew they wouldnt let me see you
even if you was one of the sweetest person in the world
cause they just dont want to lose they little girl....
But eventually the time will come when i be on my own...

i look from a view now

we was so close
we laughed together as we joked on each other
we went to the same academy, and when you went somewhere i always
was eager to follow
you was simply someone that i liked
as you talked to me
your eyes seem to light up as a smile always came across your
beautiful face

now we seem so distant
as if there a wall blocking me from being next to you
every time i go to stand by you
you slowly move away and sit somewhere else
i want to break down
and just cry
since i don't want this to end up on the ground
i know you older then me
but somehow i know you felt something more then just a friend
as you glared my way and i did the same

now i am here
just sitting alone
wondering why you let me fall for you
when all you going to do is walk away
so now its clear
you don't want me
the way i want you
so i am gone
i won't look back
it was good for a while!!

Feeling alive

Brought us together
As we texted I smiled since there was something about the way
You made me feel
By saying things that was so real
Then we saw each other
At Francis Lewis
And to tell the truth you wasn’t what I thought you look like
But some part of me still felt good inside
Since the way your eyes seem to glow It made everything feel so warm inside
Now everyday we text
Then you ask to take me outI suddenly said yes
Right there I felt something more then just friends
I felt chemistry between us
As we talked We both seem to catch each other in surprise
Since everything we liked was so alike
Now you the number one thing on my mind <3

you going to realize it!!!

I know you
Love her
And I could understand why She relates to you
Sorry that I didn’t like that about you
Sorry I said we shouldn’t be together
A day ago I would say I made a mistake
In letting you go
But today I know that it was right
Since you weren't close to being someone I would like
You made me believe you was this nice boy
But time passed by and found out You was just like the other boys
Doing things that you think are cool
When in the long term it just going to hurt you in the end
But I give up telling you that All your friends you think that are true
Are going to change on you, like you changed on me
And you going to be on the floor, And there you going to stay since everybody going to walk out on You and there you going to realize " I should of listen to her, she really cared for me"
And right there I am going to just say "I told you so" and just walk away

spread my wings

Spreading my wings
To fly away
This is no longer my place
For we are not to meant to be anything
But friends
So I go search to love again
To find that person
That wouldn’t just let me go
That would stand by my side
Till the end of time
When I say I love them
They wont lie
And say I love you to
So I am spreading my wings
And beginning to fly

letting go

First day I meet youMy heart knew it wanted you from the start
When I got you, everything inside felt so right
Felt like I got all I ever wanted by my side
Days passed as I spent most my time
With you in my life
Then suddenly the day came
When you and I Didn’t see eye to eye
As I had to walk away And say good-bye
And honestly Nothing ever scared me more
Then loosing my only truelove

Care? he doesnt know

When you care for someone
You try so hard to show them
But it seem like they cant see
As they do the things you told them not to do
As you tell them please
As you beg on your knees
Then they suddenly hang with the wrong people
And you look at them and you cant realize who they are anymore
Tears start to fall from your eyes
Since you know you lost that special person
To people that don’t care about anything
But drugs, and having fun
Its hurting you so much
As you see the one you love screw up and waste his life doing something that just going to hurt him in the end
Then you leave that person
And you feel like your whole world is about to crash
As the sight of him being with someone else
Is tearing you apart
But you know in your heart that you can't be with someone
That just cant see how much you care about them

love dont got an age

Sometimes people say
you can't love
you only 15
But they dont know what you feel inside
They don't understand how strong your emoctions are
As they poke you and tell you
that your feelings are a lie

As you stuck there
in a middle of many wispers
You want to escape all the words people are saying
but they follow you like a shadow

As you look at the person you love
and question yourself if it is really love?
He makes you laugh
He makes you want to do things that you thought you could never do
He makes you become more independent
He makes you feel so good inside
When he hugs you, you feel as if you got everything you ever wanted
He gives you a reason to wake up
He makes your bad days go away
Its love!!

You can't live without him
But force to
since the people can't see how important he is to you
They can't see how much you care for him
They forcus on what they see
But dont think of the way you look at it!
As you cry yourself to sleep
As you tell him
I hate you
It didnt mean anything
But the words you speak isn't true
You trying to let him go
Just because they dont want you to be with him
As he believes all you say
You feel as if your heart is about to break
since all you wanted was him to know you love him
To show him he the only
But you can't
since they dont understand
love dont got an age

Anywhere but here

This world could be so cruel
When you can't be who you really are
Since people would stop and stare
and make comments as if you cant hear

You want to scream
tell them this is who i am
An emoctional girl
that craves for someone to touch my heart
they think i am werid
since i want to find love
to find someone that could take my breath away
I need someone there with me
to face this lonely world

Now i want to change
become this girl that no one can figure out
That no one could see that has scars from all the
pain she went through
I want to lie
Tell them i am living a perfect life
I get everything i want
When really i dont

So today i would fake a smile
And make everybody believe i am alright
starting by saying you mean nothing to me!!

good-bye immature boy!

Its nice to have someone you care about by your side
But its not something that you really need
this world is filled with many people that could replace the person
that once was what you thought the person that would always stay with you

sometimes you are to busy missing the person that you cant really have them,
or having them is just isn't right for you
that you can't see the person that actually there for you
You to blind to see an open door
if you still stuck on the close door

Its hard to let them go
since they impacted your life in a major way
that you can't see them not yours anymore
But if you don't let them go,
you would never really be happy
you keep remembering him
instead of making new memories

some people don't see that letting
go could start a new beginning
could open a new door to something that is so amazing
That could be better then your last
and could make you not think of your past
so i am letting you go
you not really what i need
you bring joy to me
but mostly make me cry
you cheat and lie
and tell me things i don't want to know
you just aren't the apple to my eye
you still a little boy
that is trapped in a 17 year old body
you think everything a game
and you still stupid as hell
so i am letting you go
and tomorrow i will wake up with
my prince charming that i been dreaming about for a long time

sacrifice are hard to make, when you got to lose someone

All your life you felt pain
You had to play this crazy game
as people words played with your head
when finally something comes
And takes your breath away
You feel so great
As your mindset changes

You look back at the times
when you was so helpless
Thinking back at the pain
That you thought would never go away
As you lay on your bed
hiding under the covers
wishing you could be invisible
for the moment
since you couldn't bare the pain
in having to stay out of someone life
since other people think it isn't right
while your view of it
is something far more then right
its your world
its something that makes you happy for once
but you have to make sacrifices in your life
But the sacrifice makes everybody around you happy
leaving you to cry in the dark with so much difficult feelings that seem to turn you into
a stranger in your own eyes

cant be, but i want it

Tell me if this is real
since i i have to deal with things that are in my life
for a simple moment
to make me smile for a brief time
and then for a couple of years make me cry and feel like i want to die

Looking at you
talking to you
is so amazing
since the feelings that overcome me is the greatest feelings i ever known
since every word that comes out your mouth makes me simply smile
even when you tell the kids to get on line
i think you making a impact on me
and i try to step away from you
since i know me and you could never be
But my hearts insist is making you mine
and my mind is like " girl he too old for you"
But you know what they say
Your mind could say whatever
But your heart knows what best
stuck in this place wondering what to do
to step away!, or lean forward and steal a kiss
but if i do
i could lose you as a friend
and then i know i would miss you in my life
tell me what i should do cause i am stuck in this
place where i could lose you forever
or just have you as a friend and thats all you ever be!

The staff

I came to the camp

And at that moment i feel like it was going to be whack 

But i saw you

and inside felt so tight

I couldn't breath

as you walked my way

Telling me your name

I didn't want to say anything 

cause i thought i would sound lame

But words seem to spill out

Soon enough me and you became friends

You always told me to come to basketball

So as your sidekick i listened

Now i feel something different

I felt like i could let you inside

since i knew you would understand

the feelings i hide inside

You give me a reason to smile

even though i know you can't be mine

But some part of me doesn't mind

As long as you apart of my life

i would be happy inside

soon enough camp would be over

and when i think of it

my heart seems to hurt

Since i know the next day and on

you wont be in sight

you carry on with your life

and i would to

but i know you always be a thought in my head

since you are always going to be my friend!

pain

How could you forget someone?
How could you just drop your emotion's 
and carry on with life like nothing ever happen?
When the days you guys had
was the greatest days of your life
As you tell your mind 
He ain't worth your time
But you cant seem to tell your heart that 
If its still wants him


you want to give up 
As you feel like you cant do nothing
Since everything you do reminds you of him
Reminds you how much feelings you had
So you do what you like
it actually works
he is off your mind
But when the day over
and when it turns to night
your pillow becomes so wet 
and everything you hide inside
is let out like a volcano
you sick of him
you sick of the pain
but you cant do anything to stop it
since what you felt was so real
and not having it just kills 

You a lie

I could say so much about how i am feeling

but the words wouldn't fit the pain i hold inside

when the  day came 

when i had to end what we had

my heart  felt like it was going to blow 

as thoughts started to run through my head

"he was the one that has the key to my heart"

then i guess the day came when i open my eyes

and notice you was one of those typical guys

that lies to get the girl,and keep her as long as you can

I felt sorry for you

for what you went through

as i was the one that stood by your side the whole time

telling you it be alright

now i regret it all

since you can't see how much i really cared

i guess you thought i was the ordinary girl you always get

the one  that is just like you

that only cares for a moment

but baby you thought wrong

those three words meant the world to me

it wasn't a game it was my heart you played with

Now i am moving on

forget you, forget what we had

I am not going to cry

you not worth the pain, 

you don't deserve  somebody like me

I am the real deal, to much for you to handle

I got a future while you drink your life away

i am not going to follow you

so forget when i  told you

that you are my Rome model

you are nothing, but trash

you think you nice,

please you dirty as mice

i am going for the sky

as you make your way 

six feet under the ground

soon enough you going to wish you had me back

but by that time it be to late 

i would have another by my Side

your mistake hurts

When you give someone your trust




You giving that person your heart


You making them become a big part of your life


suddenly everything changes, and


you are there standing wondering how everything got to be


When a second ago they was everything you ever wanted


one single blink changed they way you saw that person


Now you looking at someone that is going down hill in life


You trying to stop that person


But that person can't see their mistake so you stuck there


like a stan on the wall


looking at them destroy they life


while its hurting you more then it hurts them


as your world falls down like quick sand


and everything going by so fast


as you wish you could go back in time


and hold that person once more


to say " i love you"

First time..

When you do something for your first time

Everything in your body becomes numb

As you look in surprise as everybody gives you a thumps up

Your heart lights up with such delight

As you shine like a star in the midnight clear sky

A big smile appears on your face

As you feel a warm feeling that you wish won't go away

As you look back on the times

When poems was the only thing that you wanted to do

As your 13 year old heart was set on becoming the greatest poet alive 

Now your dream is coming true

As you make your very first blog as a helpless 15 year old girl

That knows how to touch someone heart 

I Love You

"I love you"

Is three simple words,

That seem to have so much power to it

It doesn't just come out of your mouth

But develops in your heart

It reveals many emotions that can't seem

To be express in any words

As it ensures the person they worth more to

You then gold

As you set aside your dreams

and all your goals, to make them your world

Sometimes this thing called love

Can change who you are

For better or worse

As you try to show them behind this eight lettered word

Is the greatest feeling ever known