good-bye immature boy!

Its nice to have someone you care about by your side
But its not something that you really need
this world is filled with many people that could replace the person
that once was what you thought the person that would always stay with you

sometimes you are to busy missing the person that you cant really have them,
or having them is just isn't right for you
that you can't see the person that actually there for you
You to blind to see an open door
if you still stuck on the close door

Its hard to let them go
since they impacted your life in a major way
that you can't see them not yours anymore
But if you don't let them go,
you would never really be happy
you keep remembering him
instead of making new memories

some people don't see that letting
go could start a new beginning
could open a new door to something that is so amazing
That could be better then your last
and could make you not think of your past
so i am letting you go
you not really what i need
you bring joy to me
but mostly make me cry
you cheat and lie
and tell me things i don't want to know
you just aren't the apple to my eye
you still a little boy
that is trapped in a 17 year old body
you think everything a game
and you still stupid as hell
so i am letting you go
and tomorrow i will wake up with
my prince charming that i been dreaming about for a long time

sacrifice are hard to make, when you got to lose someone

All your life you felt pain
You had to play this crazy game
as people words played with your head
when finally something comes
And takes your breath away
You feel so great
As your mindset changes

You look back at the times
when you was so helpless
Thinking back at the pain
That you thought would never go away
As you lay on your bed
hiding under the covers
wishing you could be invisible
for the moment
since you couldn't bare the pain
in having to stay out of someone life
since other people think it isn't right
while your view of it
is something far more then right
its your world
its something that makes you happy for once
but you have to make sacrifices in your life
But the sacrifice makes everybody around you happy
leaving you to cry in the dark with so much difficult feelings that seem to turn you into
a stranger in your own eyes

cant be, but i want it

Tell me if this is real
since i i have to deal with things that are in my life
for a simple moment
to make me smile for a brief time
and then for a couple of years make me cry and feel like i want to die

Looking at you
talking to you
is so amazing
since the feelings that overcome me is the greatest feelings i ever known
since every word that comes out your mouth makes me simply smile
even when you tell the kids to get on line
i think you making a impact on me
and i try to step away from you
since i know me and you could never be
But my hearts insist is making you mine
and my mind is like " girl he too old for you"
But you know what they say
Your mind could say whatever
But your heart knows what best
stuck in this place wondering what to do
to step away!, or lean forward and steal a kiss
but if i do
i could lose you as a friend
and then i know i would miss you in my life
tell me what i should do cause i am stuck in this
place where i could lose you forever
or just have you as a friend and thats all you ever be!

The staff

I came to the camp

And at that moment i feel like it was going to be whack 

But i saw you

and inside felt so tight

I couldn't breath

as you walked my way

Telling me your name

I didn't want to say anything 

cause i thought i would sound lame

But words seem to spill out

Soon enough me and you became friends

You always told me to come to basketball

So as your sidekick i listened

Now i feel something different

I felt like i could let you inside

since i knew you would understand

the feelings i hide inside

You give me a reason to smile

even though i know you can't be mine

But some part of me doesn't mind

As long as you apart of my life

i would be happy inside

soon enough camp would be over

and when i think of it

my heart seems to hurt

Since i know the next day and on

you wont be in sight

you carry on with your life

and i would to

but i know you always be a thought in my head

since you are always going to be my friend!

pain

How could you forget someone?
How could you just drop your emotion's 
and carry on with life like nothing ever happen?
When the days you guys had
was the greatest days of your life
As you tell your mind 
He ain't worth your time
But you cant seem to tell your heart that 
If its still wants him


you want to give up 
As you feel like you cant do nothing
Since everything you do reminds you of him
Reminds you how much feelings you had
So you do what you like
it actually works
he is off your mind
But when the day over
and when it turns to night
your pillow becomes so wet 
and everything you hide inside
is let out like a volcano
you sick of him
you sick of the pain
but you cant do anything to stop it
since what you felt was so real
and not having it just kills 

You a lie

I could say so much about how i am feeling

but the words wouldn't fit the pain i hold inside

when the  day came 

when i had to end what we had

my heart  felt like it was going to blow 

as thoughts started to run through my head

"he was the one that has the key to my heart"

then i guess the day came when i open my eyes

and notice you was one of those typical guys

that lies to get the girl,and keep her as long as you can

I felt sorry for you

for what you went through

as i was the one that stood by your side the whole time

telling you it be alright

now i regret it all

since you can't see how much i really cared

i guess you thought i was the ordinary girl you always get

the one  that is just like you

that only cares for a moment

but baby you thought wrong

those three words meant the world to me

it wasn't a game it was my heart you played with

Now i am moving on

forget you, forget what we had

I am not going to cry

you not worth the pain, 

you don't deserve  somebody like me

I am the real deal, to much for you to handle

I got a future while you drink your life away

i am not going to follow you

so forget when i  told you

that you are my Rome model

you are nothing, but trash

you think you nice,

please you dirty as mice

i am going for the sky

as you make your way 

six feet under the ground

soon enough you going to wish you had me back

but by that time it be to late 

i would have another by my Side

your mistake hurts

When you give someone your trust




You giving that person your heart


You making them become a big part of your life


suddenly everything changes, and


you are there standing wondering how everything got to be


When a second ago they was everything you ever wanted


one single blink changed they way you saw that person


Now you looking at someone that is going down hill in life


You trying to stop that person


But that person can't see their mistake so you stuck there


like a stan on the wall


looking at them destroy they life


while its hurting you more then it hurts them


as your world falls down like quick sand


and everything going by so fast


as you wish you could go back in time


and hold that person once more


to say " i love you"

First time..

When you do something for your first time

Everything in your body becomes numb

As you look in surprise as everybody gives you a thumps up

Your heart lights up with such delight

As you shine like a star in the midnight clear sky

A big smile appears on your face

As you feel a warm feeling that you wish won't go away

As you look back on the times

When poems was the only thing that you wanted to do

As your 13 year old heart was set on becoming the greatest poet alive 

Now your dream is coming true

As you make your very first blog as a helpless 15 year old girl

That knows how to touch someone heart 

I Love You

"I love you"

Is three simple words,

That seem to have so much power to it

It doesn't just come out of your mouth

But develops in your heart

It reveals many emotions that can't seem

To be express in any words

As it ensures the person they worth more to

You then gold

As you set aside your dreams

and all your goals, to make them your world

Sometimes this thing called love

Can change who you are

For better or worse

As you try to show them behind this eight lettered word

Is the greatest feeling ever known